24 June 2011
Cause of ambivalence:
A beautiful French actress (and maybe beautiful women in general)
"Dear French Actress, You were amazing in the movie... So amazing that I kind of wish I was more French, and thinner, and blond. ❤"
In the movie theater bathroom.
I know this note sounds a little pitiful and self-loathing, but just hear me out. The goal of this note was not to feel sorry for myself, but to acknowledge that while I loved the beautiful French actress, I couldn't help but compare myself to her. I hate it, the instinct to compare. It just perpetuates the absurd idea, so present in our society, that women should compete against one another. It implies that one woman's achievements or qualities take away those of another, which is ridiculous. I've been trying to find ways of appreciating the talents and beauty of others without letting it impact my own self-worth. In the meantime, I left a note behind.
Labels: MY AMBIVALENCE